*seaman*
Ok so I’m trying to come up with the perfect subject header to describe my awesome day, today.
After close to 15 years, I got to see my friend Jenn. We went to middle school and high school together back in Maryland. How awesome it was to find out that she lived in California. Only like an hour and a half away from me. We’ve been wanting to get together for a long time, but hadn’t really been able to plan anything. Last weekend we talked about going to the beach. So we went today! She drove down and picked me up. We went to La Jolla. I LOVE La Jolla! It was beautiful. The weather was wonderful. It was perfect even. The water was cold, but refreshing too.
We talked about school days, and SO many things! It seriously felt like old times. OMG she brought yearbooks, and I cringed at my pics, and messages I left her. HAHA K-I-T! Oh the things we all said in yearbooks when we thought we were cool lol. It was so amazing to just have all these memories coming back. I really do have good long term memory. It’s shocking. Oh my goodness it was such a good day. I was sad to find out that my old choir teacher passed away. I feel bad because we kinda said mean things about him, and now that I know the reason for his passing, I’m realizing that it really isn’t good to pick on people. I mean, I know this obviously. He was an awesome teacher, and he challenged me for the short time that I had him as a teacher. But he is what got me motivated to work on my singing. He truly was my inspiration.
Anyway, I took a BUNCH of pictures and will post the link in a bit.
Did you know that going to the beach can actually PAY? I mean literally. It can.
How you ask? Oh let me tell you my friend! So we were getting ready to go after taking a nice walk, when this guy is like “Excuse me ladies, are you going that way?” and we said we were. He needed help carrying a bunch of food over to a party they were having for a girls soccer team. He said that he would pay us. We both paused but said sure.. I mean.. money? Did you say you’d pay us? Let’s see.. I am broke as hell til the 9th.. Um.. *thinks* YES! We said that we would. The guy was very gracious,(gave us both a $20!) asked our names,and was talking about the party of hungry girls (30 of ‘ em I think) So we were handed bags. (from Chipotle. mmm) Headed over to where the party was taking place while the guy made small talk with us. He offered us beer, food, and asked if we would take a swim later on. Ok that sounds creepy typed that way but it really wasn’t. He was just pretty much inviting us to the party. We declined and headed home after many many many thank you’s.
We did a good deed, and got paid for it. It’s not like the walk was that far, and the food was hard to carry or anything. I’m shocked he gave us that much money. But, it’s definitely appreciated 
So, we headed to the car and she took me home. OH!!!! She gave me 3 pieces of her art! This woman is an AMAZING artist. Seriously. I remember back in the day …. watching her draw, and it’s just such an awesome thing. I love it. It’s like a dance, the way an artist moves their hand as they sketch. I absolutely LOVE it.
So I have 3 to hang up in my apartment. Thank you so much Jenn!!!
It was a very very very good day and I cannot wait to get together again. Thank you Jenn for bringing all the food and drinks. I will definitely take care of that next time! Oh and just for the record.. ya might wanna know that you kinda um… smell weird…. yeah…..
LOL I had to add that. You knew I so would!
Seriously she doesn’t.. you had to be there. Trust me haha!
Oh!! and I bring you
http://www.flickr.com/photos/mzkitteh/sets/72157604866674992/
Pics!
Oh and about the subject header? Yeah.. it’s about 2 girls being uber silly and giggling over silly names. Because she’s as easily amused as I am! That’s why we’re friends. Yep.
Edited to add: So Jenn.. This is how stubborn I am.. Thought I truly had all the potential burn spots covered… From this point on, if anyone offers me sunblock/sunscreen, I’m taking it! My legs, not just the back part you saw, are totally burnt. Burnt like OUCH burnt. Ah well.. It’ll produce a wonderful tan Sometimes burns take a bit to actually show up so hopefully you were spared, since you were smart. (I am the idiot after all lol… but happy idiot right? So hope you remember the reference to that one haha)
Damn it
94+ degrees, in an apartment with no a/c is unacceptable! Someone buy me an apartment or house with central a/c please? Not ready for summer. Never will be. I’m moving to Antarctica. Must be nice to live in houses with a/c. I remember those days. Bah fricken humbug.
See my side
Dedicated to my beautiful lady.
http://www.reflectwithin.com/11%20See%20My%20Side.m4p
Jordin Sparks
“See My Side”
I’ve been trying for days
To think of a way
To find the words to make sense
Of how we behave
This might take a while
So please just hear me out
We know how things can get crazy
When we go ablaze
We just get carried away
Believe me, I know
Don’t even say a word
Now please just hear me out
[Chorus]
See my side
And I’ll see yours better
Love me back
And I’ll love you better
Sometimes the stunts that we pull
Don’t even make sense
But I was never the one
To feel that resent
This ain’t ’bout who’s to blame
So please just hear me out
When the scene gets intense
It’s hard to prevent
From going all crazy again
Believe me, I know
Don’t even say a word
Now please just hear me out
[Chorus]
See my side
And I’ll see yours better
Love me back
And I’ll love you better
[Chorus]
See my side
And I’ll see yours better
Love me back
And I’ll love you better
We’ll get right back
On the right track
We’ll get right back on
We’ll get right back on
On the rgiht track
[Chorus]
See my side
And I’ll see yours better
Love me back
And I’ll love you better
[Chorus]
See my side
And I’ll see yours better
Love me back
And I’ll love you better
Tatoo
And 2 others that are totally me and my life right now. Couldn’t make them clickable for some reason..
http://www.reflectwithin.com/01%20Tattoo.m4p
oh oh oh
No matter what you say about love
It keeps coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for
No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is the danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I’ll always have you)
Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I’ll always have you)
If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
Still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction (don’t look back)
I loved you once needed protection (no, no)
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
I can’t waste time so give it a moment (i can’t waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction (don’t you ever look back)
I loved you once needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you
One Step at a Time
http://www.reflectwithin.com/02%20One%20Step%20At%20a%20Time.m4p
JORDIN SPARKS LYRICS
“One Step At A Time”
Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you’ve always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can’t touch
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated
And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting
[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There’s no need to rush
It’s like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It’s gonna happen and it’s
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time
You believe and you doubt
You’re confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew
You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated
And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting
[Chorus]
When you can’t wait any longer
But there’s no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It’s the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time
Freeze….
Coding is being dumb. Copy and paste this to your web browser:
http://www.reflectwithin.com/04%20Freeze.m4p
(song has significant meaning to me right now…)
JORDIN SPARKS LYRICS
“Freeze”
Hold the pose, a perfect picture
Just so I remember how you’re looking tonight
Let it go, now the days gone
Standing in the dark, although we’ve turned on the lights
Tonight we will deny, that time is passing by
It’s leaving you and I to…
Freeze
A moment, its never been better
Freeze
All over, we won’t last forever
You said that you’re sorry for pushing me
But then smiled when I opened my eyes
I’m gonna
Freeze
A moment, while we’re together
Keep the peace, by gones be gone
Coming up the rain under the life that we’ve made
Under here, we’re not so soft
Forgiving the feeling that we put on parade
Tonight we will deny, that time is passing by
It’s leaving you and I to…
Freeze
A moment, its never been better
Freeze
All over, we won’t last forever
You said that you’re sorry for pushing me
But then smiled when I opened my eyes
I’m gonna
Freeze
A moment, while we’re together
Don’t stop, gotta know what you got
There’s no second chances in life
Don’t break, gotta give what you take
With you
Freeze
A moment, its never been better
Freeze
All over, we won’t last forever
Freeze
A moment, its never been better
I Freeze
All over, we won’t last forever
You looked at me with the truth in your eyes
And you said it’s ok, you can go
I’m gonna
Freeze
This moment, while we’re together
Freeze
A moment
Tagged!
The awesome, fantabulous, Chenoa tagged me! (note to self, update and add link)
So here we go!
Here’s how you play: Once you’ve been tagged you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random facts, habits, or goals about yourself– at the end choose 5 people to be tagged. Don’t forget to leave them a comment saying (You’re It!) and to go read your blog. You cannot tag the person that tagged you. So since you can’t tag me back let me know when you are done so that I can go read YOUR blog answers.
1. I am blind in my right eye
2. I have one blue eye and one brown eye
3. I am terrified of marriage but keeping fighting the urge to propose to someone…….
4. I’m overweight and need to lose weight but use my hypoglycemia to make excuses.. pfft.
5. I was meant to be right handed, but copied my sister and taught myself to be left handed
6. I love to sing. Yet I have a hard time singing in front of anyone that is close to me. But competition wise? I’m there. I sight read like a mofo.
7.I haven’t talked to my mother since June 30th of ‘05.
8. I don’t know my biological father
9. I work for a workman’s comp. company, and http://www.twitter.com is insured through us.
10. I’m terrified of sirens.
Tag anyone who hasn’t done this? All my friends online have so um… if you haven’t.. get to it.. now!
My second family…
I consider the co-workers at the office I work at, as my second family. There are some I love, some I loathe, and some I genuinely care about. I’ve built relationships with many of these people. In the beginning I was the newbie… the temp…. I had to prove to the perms. that I was a serious worker. I busted my ass for the 7 months it took for me to get hired on. In that time I had to learn how to work in the professional world. How to be professional. How to meet deadlines and work at a fast pace. I also learned that there all sorts of different people everywhere. I have built strong friendships with a lot of my co-workers. I have also build social relationships with others. We all know each other by name, and always greet each other. We talk, we laugh, we anxiously await paydays, friday, casual friday, holidays, special events in our lives and company events as well. We deal with the stress of working in the workman’s comp. business. At the end of the day we leave feeling good about our day. But something happened that has shaken all of us. Including myself.
One of our co-workers that worked in Claims, more specifically, Litigation, for the past 5 years, passed away last night. She suffered from a pulmonary embolism. She was medically put into a coma to try to come out of what happened but unfortunately when she was pulled back from the coma, she could not breathe on her own. She was put on life support for a week. Yesterday her family made the decision to put her off life support and let nature take it’s course. I don’t have all the details yet, but it’s believed that she passed away last night.
We were pulled into an emergency meeting today (I missed because I was in the damn bathroom) to be informed of the sad news. I found out in a horrible way, through a co-worker who was talking about it and mentioned “death” and didn’t realize, I wasn’t at the meeting. Bad way to find out… I’ve been worrying and wondering since last week. My boss gave me the official word and I started to choke up. I had to walk away from his desk and go back to mine. It’s just so sad…. I’ve never dealt with the death of a co-worker before..
I’ll make a post soon that focuses on my feelings on this, but for now, I just want to say that my heart goes out to the entire family.
Starlight star bright….
First star…
Eh no.
So I am being asked a LOT, and I have kept this pretty privy in most places.
I went to a casting call for Big Brother 10, 2 weeks ago. I’ll recap it all soon, but for now I just want to say.
No I have not made it, would not happen this soon. BB9 (which I sent vid/app for) was quick. Because of the strike. I made it to the semi-final for BB9, but I freaked, and chickened out. I couldn’t go to L.A. at the time.
I have not gotten the call yet, for this one. The casting scouts liked me. They loved my eyes and my personality. I do not know what will happen. If I don’t get a call back for semi-finals by the first week of May… it’s not happening. If I get a call back. I go to L.A. for semi-finals. Which is the interview with the casting director/producer whatever….. if I make that and get the final’s call back, I go to L.A. for a week all expense paid…. I don’t expect much at all. But we’ll see…
If I want you to know. You will know.
G’night
Bad aura
I am really getting fed up with where I live. The aura here sucks more and more. My neighbor has had a crappy attitude towards me for way too long. It’s such an uncomfortable feeling here that I keep myself locked up in my apartment. I peek outside to see if the “coast is clear” before exiting. When I get home, or go out long enough to check mail, take trash out, or whatever, I try to do it quickly and quietly. If I see the neighbor or her friends, I say a friendly hi. They used to say hi back. Now I don’t even get that. I’m sick of it. Whatever issues you have with me. Please just let it die. I’m not the one who has friends over at 11pm on Sunday nights, sitting outside polluting the air with cancerous cig. smoke, blasting music, and laughing hysterically. I try to just come and go as quietly as possible. Less drama. Less tension. Why must you make me feel like I can’t even leave my home without feeling like there are daggers being thrown at me? I don’t want to feel uncomfortable in the home I pay to live in anymore.
They seemed to be ok when my ex was still in the picture. But then again, she spent most of her time when she’d come over, outside with them. Smoking, chatting, la di fricken da. I have always been the outcast. Is this because I tried to befriend the other neighbor? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I HATE this immature petty crap.
Anyway, I planned on getting 3 big tasks done today. 1. shower! 2. laundry 3. dishes. I can’t do any of this because there is no hot water. What a lovely day for that. So, I’m just sitting here feeling like another day will go to waste. I’m rather shaky. I ate. But I didn’t eat enough to balance my sugar level so, I’m just.. feeling off. I’m debating cooking. But, I didn’t want to cook anything until I got the dishes washed. I can’t wash dishes in cold water. That is just… yuck. I wish I had the funds to order pizza or something. But, then again, that would require having to go outside, and I can’t do that because of the neighbor. What a sucky way to feel.
I do need to go to the store and pick up some groceries. I’ll be having company for a few days… But maybe I’ll just wait until she gets here.. At least when she’s here, I don’t feel so afraid to leave my apartment. *sigh*
I guess I’ll just rinse off the dishes, and hope the hot water returns soon… And cook something…. I need to do something to calm my stress level… and lower the anxiety.. which isn’t all bad anxiety.. but it’s nerve wracking to say the least.